He and I have moved to a higher realm in our relationship.
I am ready to stop questioning and wondering, in exchange for "doing". To please him not because I think it's good for the relationship (it is, of course) but because it is truly how I feel in my heart. The gentle, loving, caring sides of my spirit have won over the "I am strong, I am woman, I am going to resist you" side.
These feelings of new acceptance have been growing for some time. This is not novel thinking. I realize it's real, though likely there will be plenty of times when I will be tempted to display my female roar.
But, oh, I will need to stop in time to realize who I will be roaring to. And, understand it really has no place. It is an action not necessary to engage in with him. And of course, he is more dominant and will quickly and respectfully remind me. With love.
I am so happily in love!
I have been more candid. For example, I expressed recently that I want him to take me when he feels the desire. And I will be aware of his needs. He thought those were great, intimate words and appreciated knowing this is what I want. Yes I do want this, for him, for me, for us.
In this new year, I am looking forward to continuing to grow and to loving him in the sweet ways he deserves, without resistance. It won't be always easy, but I am ready.